Your children see you in every circumstance. They see who you are at your best, and at your worst. The memories they will forever have engrained in their heads are those of the daily life you represent. They won't care who you were on social media. Or how happy you were that one time when you were at the orchard. They will remember the mom they lived with day-in and day-out. That filtered portion of your life is only just a tiny piece of the puzzle to your life, and your kids... well, they see the whole picture. You aren't fooling them. They know what matters to you. They know what you put first and what you hold at high regard. They see how you treat your husband and the stranger in front of you in line at the grocery.
Their ears are always open. Their hearts are always taking notes.
So who do you want to be? Who do you want to represent? Because they are watching. They are holding onto every bit of you. Know that they will remember all of it - not just the pieces that you share.
I want to be the mom that stops and gives a man sitting in the cold her husband's jacket. The mom who sits and listens to an old man's story simply because he doesn't have anyone else to talk to. The mom who leaves an extra tip to the rude and tired waitress. The mom who doesn't get upset when dinner falls onto the floor, but laughs it off and orders pizza without missing a beat. The mom with smile lines and crows feet from years of laughter and happiness. That is the mom I want my boys to see. I am definitely not that woman right now, but I pray that God gives me the patience and the means to be that way - to be an example and to be love. At all times. Not just behind filtered screens, but at all times for my children to see, because they will see. And they will remember.