I have always been one to go for it. To act now and think later. Andy can attest for this philosophy as I often overreact about something he had brought up, and then about a day later (after thinking it through) I agree that he had a great idea on his hands. This part of my life has slowly sunk away with each child. I feel like I process things for way longer (which is probably good considering the above statements) but it has always made me become incredibly cautious. WHICH I HATE. I hate thinking hard about things, I hate talking myself out of living in the moment. And mostly I hate being scared to take a leap of faith because reality sinks in. Most of you would probably assume that it is natural to become a little more "responsible" with decisions as you have kids, but I can't help but feel that most times we hold ourselves back from some pretty amazing opportunities just because we get scared, fear failure, and just don't want to disappoint anyone.
I think I am going to make a mid-year resolution to put my heart on the line a little bit more. I want my boys to be brave and go for their dreams, but if they don't see Andy and I making any leaps of faith, then how will they trust their own selves? How will they find the courage to go for something even if they wind up failing? I want them to trust and believe in the unknown. I want them to jump higher than "just the next step" I want them to chase dreams and to live big. I am finding more and more that when we make decisions it isn't true that one is necessarily better than the other, it is just that they two outcomes take your life down different paths. It isn't that one will make you a miserable failure, it more-so just paves a different life. I want to show my boys how to be brave. I want them to see that Andy and I believe in our choices and believe in ourselves. I want to live a full and free life, and I want my boys to have a beautiful life they're proud of, one day, too!
I hope that we can all find things in life that bring us happiness and make us proud of our past. I am looking forward to what lies ahead!
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